I feel like I may be forcing myself to think that the job I am doing now is what I really want to be doing, although I don't really have something that I want to do.
ご質問ありがとうございます。
"I feel like I may be forcing myself to think that"＝「私は～だと自分を思いこませようとしていたようです」
"the job I am doing now is what I really want to be doing,"＝「今、私がしている仕事は自分が本当にしたいことだと」
"although I don't really have something that I want to do."＝「でも本当はやりたいものが無いのに。」
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